dreamscape

Sigh. Sometimes I have strange dreams. I don't know what they're trying to tell me, because I can't have what it is that they show me. I had it once, but it's gone now. Besides, I'm 99.9% sure that I don't even want it, anymore, either. It's just difficult to keep waking up with a feeling of loss.

What is even stranger is that the dreams are getting more intense as time goes on. I keep thinking that I'll get some explanation from the world, the universe, God, whatever...but it hasn't happened yet. I'm starting to wonder if I'm truly as alone as I feel or if everything is all in my mind.